Sometimes, when youre in a dream, you dont think youre dreaming, you think its real. Sometimes when you youre awake, you cant tell whether your past dreams were just dreams or reality. It can make reality and fiction confusing, you cross both works from whats hidden in youre mind to what you are living.

Sometimes, when i was younger, i had lucid dreams. I could control it from years of practice. I could change seanaries, play out my fantasies, and control everything.

Now im at a half way point. Last year id know that i was draming and ud try to fly, but id gradually flost then fall. If it was night, id try hard to make it day but itd turn dark again.

i dont know why this has happened, but i think its because im letting go of the power od my mind. Too much stress. That alone doesnt suffice the meanings of my dreams nor where or why they are what they are. Dreaming is such a big topic for me now more than ever since theyve been changing and experiancing a lot of strange and different things. It tells me about my mind and myself. The life im living and my strengths and weaknesses. Can i make them lucid again? Or will they distortedly mirror my handle in my life and what im really going through…