Kaleidoscope in Sockets

epiphany time

I just realized that I try too hard. And I think too hard. For my appearence. My day. The mirror. My clothes. My hair. My morals. My thoughts. What i like and dont like. How i speak. How i walk. My beliefs.

I think too much about what I’m thinking. I feel like I strain too much even when I’m not thinking. I’m self conciouse and scared. And not just what people would assume. it’s not because of you. It’s not just society. Everything is just so hard and intense in my mind. I want to stop thinking and drop this feeling of worry.

I want to throw everything in th garbage for a while. my thoughts. my morals. (I shouldn’t have to be thinking so hard about this stuff, it should comw natural right?)
I just want to go away for a while where no one can find me, & where I could leave all of my dilemmas behind. I don’t want to have to think about why i appreciate nature, my country, my life. i want to be free of thought, of judgment, of worries, & let everything out. be ridiculous, b loud, b stupid, b whatever as long as I’m not thinking.as long as i know I’m being me.

reverse

I think about my past more then I think about my present. I think about my present more then I think about my future. I try to live for the present moment, for now, and get high off life, but my past is preventing that, it’s holding me back, and it’s making it so hard to move on to a better hopeful future. Someone help me!

aural bliss

Explorians in the Sky really capture my soal to the core. No joke.

laptop

I need a laptop, well a computer all together, but i need a laptop badly. I dont like being in an uncomfortable place all the time, and i need movement. i also hate chairs, I like cauches and i like streching out and sinking into them. and I like movement: I can sit Indian style and lay on my back and on my side and on my stomache. i like sitting outside and in coffee shops. all i know is that I need a laptop for my own personal self-indulgence.

intelligence should be the new trend

likethesun:

because, frankly, a lot of people need it.

cats

What is it with cats and photographers? I see the trend, and its not that I hate them or anything, but I just prefer dogs. Then again Im allergic to cats and havent had the best experiances with them. Maybe its my envy that Id never get to take photos of them without having to go to the pharmacist for an emergency prescription.